Realizations ?

I'm quitting dance. I'm just too fucking sick of always getting hurt and shit, and I can't keep beating up my body like that. I'm taking musical theater again. After 11 years, next year will be the first time I don't have to worry about dance to do things. Things like hanging out with people and junk.

It's terrifying.

I can't even imagine what it's going to be like next year.

I might go back, if next year is too terrible. I'm taking at least a year off, but it might be more. Or less, depending.

This is going to be awful.

At least I have a (mini) solo in Thriller...

I'm trying my hardest this recital...

I have to do great.

Or, at least, what passes for 'great' with me.


So I did the variety show. xD

Wait, have I talked about the show? o.o I don't think so... My choir teacher didn't like my solo, because my "boobs bounced like bumblebees!" (yeah, I know), but I got to do a duet with my friend. It was really fun. (:

My best franns came and they cheered me on. Whoop!

So, at this moment, I'm happy, but depressed.

Blargh.

i'm half-doomed and you're semi-sweet. (:

Holy shit, it's been a long time since I last posted. ><>

Ignore that.

Today, I went to a bookstore. :D I got On Writing, The Stand, Firestarter, and two other horror books. (The first three are by Stephen King, for the record). It made me quite happy. (:

We also had mini cakes because it's my stepdad's- er, I mean, Dr. Wilson (from House)'s birthday. Yeah. Cake is good.

I also rediscovered my love for Panic at the Disco and Fall Out Boy. I finally got my Zune back (after an entire week without it), and I was listening to that lovely 'shuffle' feature, and But it's Better if You Do came on. (: That was my favorite song a while back. It made me feel old.

... Even though I'm only fifteen. You know. I can feel old, too.

I've finally discovered the cause for my headaches! Apparently, I grind my teeth. Which means that when I'm asleep, for 10 hours a night, my teeth are grinding away. Which causes headaches. Which means that what three CAT scans and an MRI couldn't figure out has been accomplished by a visit to the dentist.

Thank you, dentist. (:

I've also rekindled a love for the song "Back Where We Started" by Tina Dico. If you know it, then you're awesome, and we should be best friends. If you don't know it, then you should look it up. I'm doing my final in Choir to that song (dancing--don't ask me how that works), and I think it's doing well. (:

OH! I saw Young Frankenstein today (the musical). It was freaking amazing. (: I loved it so much, even if the 'dirty jokes' made me a bit uncomfortable, with my friends parents right by me. (:

I also saw The Rocky Horror Picture Show yesterday, but I liked that significantly less. :P I still don't 'get' it. If you can explain it, do so in a comment. (;

I don't know what else I can say... Other then that my ex boyfriend has decided that he's in love with me again. So now I have two choices: I can seduce him to get his other ex to stop thinking about him, or let him down easy. I dislike the ex, so I'm thinking of going with the first choice. (:

In other other news, I finally finished my first short story. (: It's called Somewhere, A Queen is Weeping and it takes place in Medieval London. I like it. I'm submitting it to my school's creative arts magazine.

Lastly, I've finally gotten into American Idol again. And so, to commemorate, my mother decided that she wants me to try out when they come near us this summer. Oh, joy. So instead of practicing for something (anything) dance-related, I'm working on my (mad) vocal skills. Should be fun. If I make it, I'll be sure to let y'all know. (;

I guess that's it.

Ciao, for now. (:

Jasmine